Davina McCall has admitted that she has been "terrified of dying my whole life", adding that she has made plans for what happens when she dies.
Speaking with Fearne Cotton's Happy Place podcast, McCall said that undergoing her procedure to remove a benign brain tumour had left her "not afraid of dying any more".
Now, McCall has opened up on her earliest fears, explaining to Good Housekeeping UK: "I’ve been terrified of dying my whole life – my mum died quite young, my dad died quite young, and my sister died very young".
"I thought: ‘I have to come to terms with the fact that I might not make it, so what do I have to do to make that OK?’ I had to let go of the outcome and be able to go to sleep without the abject horror of the idea of dying", she continued.
"I said to Michael (Douglas, her partner): ‘If I go, I really need you to keep plugged in to the kids (Holly, Tilly and Chester, who she shares with her ex-husband Matthew Robertson) and stay in their lives".
"We were both scared, but we were honest and told each other that. It made the whole thing less daunting, knowing that everything was out on the table".
Elsewhere, Davina McCall also explained how she and Douglas told her children about the tumour.
"Michael and I just did a casual chat in the kitchen. I said: ‘Look, we know what it is and we know where it is, it’s quite rare, but we’ve found somebody who’s done the operation before and he feels confident", she stated. "I didn’t talk to them about dying, but I did write each of them a letter and I did my will".
"I thought: ‘You’re all great kids and you’ll all be fine if I don’t make it – of course, I want to make it, but if I don’t, you’ll all turn out great".
"I don’t want to read (the letters) now, as if I’d died, but I do want them to know that I’m proud of them".
Back in May, McCall revealed she wrote "letters and a will" before undergoing brain tumour surgery last year. More on this story here.
